Tuesday, November 24, 2020

Dreams in November Rain

 It has been raining daily with thunderstorm for the past one week. It marked the rainy season in Malaysia. As always. The only difference this year is that it is coupled with the rampant virus spread in the society despite the Control Movement Order, despite the strict SOPs imposed. And the health authority said the rain (or snow) will make the spread worse through the droplets of water if not controlled strictly. Being cooped at home in a gloomy weather with the same routine everyday can make one go crazy. That's exactly what I'm feeling right now. Fortunately kids are busy with their online classes and Mr Hubby is busy working virtually. So that just left only me sticking to the boring house routine. Oh yeah sure, there are so many things that I can do in the house like try new recipes, clean up the wardrobes, clear up the store, rearrange clothes, and the list is just endless. But do I really want to do that on top of the daily never ending house chores? No way. I want to do something exciting. Something new. Perhaps I should enter a writing contest or a translation contest (this I missed the deadline already) or perhaps read a good book. Or watch a good movie - which I already searched but none came through. 

I really hope the rain will go away soon. And importantly, I wish the virus will just diminish! I want to go away .. I want to go places, hang out by the beach, watch the sunset and sunrise, have coffee and chit chat with girlfriends.. and so many more. I want to wander around an island and have ice cream under the hot sun, in my shorts, slippers and hat. With giggling girlfriends. OK fine.. pictures of youth. Perhaps I should reiterate. I want to walk slowly (without cane I hope), leisurely enjoying the company of girlfriends, in my most comfortable long pants and shirt, with a fashionable hat, with occasional elegant laugh, simply savoring the moment and remembering the past without any regret, wishing we could have done more. Wink wink!

It's always nice to imagine, dream and just smile at it. I have often imagined and dream of things, events, trips, and numerous happenings that I wish would happen for real. There are some that actually came true. VERY few. Then again, I thank God that it happened. I also thank God for those that has yet to happen. Because I know it will happen or if it doesn't, that means it is not meant to be for me. I'm saying this not to make me feel better but because I believe Allah has plans for me and His is the best, so I shall follow. 

I'm feeling better already having written this down. I thought I was gonna go bonkers. Let's hope the November rain will stop. Let there be a rainbow after that. Let the sun shines again till dusk. Let me have a peak at the beautiful sunset over the buildings, trains and trees (though it'll be more picturesque over the sea, but this will do). Let's pray for a miracle. Merrily, God is ever listening and Loves His servant immensely. 



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