It's May! I couldn't believe it. I missed April! After all that hype of having a new laptop.. I actually missed writing in April. So much of having a new tool and yet I didn't write at all!
Ok so what is it that made me missed April? First, it was the excitement of having a new tool was kinda overwhelming. I spent most of my time testing it, installed things that I need to work on it. Then, as though it knows I have this new tool, a job came in that required me to really test the machine. Thennnn only I know and I feel as though I've been cheated. The longer I work on it, the more problems I encountered that made me feel like I REALLY have been cheated on this one. One by one the letters on the keypad cannot be used. After using it for two week, I found at least 3 letters cannot be used or intermittently. At the end of two hellish week of trying to finish my work within the deadline and struggling with the so called cool machine, I happily open my beloved, outdated netbook again.
So, at this very moment, I am writing happily using my old, lil netbook again. The one that has earned me many many things for the past 10 years. Let it be.. it's ok that it is outdated technologically, it's ok that it is small, it is ok that i have to depend on the power outlet. Yes.. it is ok as long as that I don't have to punch the 'g' or the 'r' key for like 30 times before it actually appear on the screen.. or that I have to move my fingers like everywhere on the touchpad before the cursor actually moved! And it's ok using this lil machine as long I don't have to scream in frustration in the middle of the night.
This is something that taught me another lesson in life. You always thought that things will be better if you get that thing that you've wanted for so long, or you will be better off with so and so, you will feel happier when you reach a certain stage in your life... but the truth is... nooooo... for wherever you are for whatever you are, never wait for something, someone or sometime, to do what you need to do, to feel what you want to feel.
Live the moment, love the moment, be grateful..
Ramadhan Kareem everyone. Let's pray and pray that this Ramadhan will not be the last Ramadhan for us, and that this Ramadhan will be a better Ramadhan than before.
