A friend in need is a friend INDEED

Somebody posted about having a "new best friend" today. I am not sure what this person meant by having a new best friend. Is she somebody you just knew and just hit it off and give you presents? Is she somebody who keeps you company at THAT very moment when everyone else had no time for you or you already got tired of your old friends? I am not sure. And this is the very same friend who "unfriend" me because she thinks we don't have the same goal in life, or something like that. 

Also today, for the umpteenth time in my whole lifetime of knowing this person whom I used to call best friend, treated me like as though I am just a nobody. Perhaps I said something wrong, perhaps I didn't show that I cared enough, perhaps she's too stressed over things that I seemed to be a tiny matter to her. PERHAPS. But still I shall regard her as A friend as I don't want to lose her. I  will just regard this as another 'bad phase' of a friendship.

Friends... I have very few whom I treasure more than diamonds (and mind you I don't live in many circle of friends). They are almost the air that I breathe.. I simply cannot live without them. Hence when a friend treated me differently as my expectation, I am hurt, deeply. OK I may not have a big heart, not big enough to have it protected from hurt. 

Somebody once said, friends come and go like waves of the ocean, the true ones stick, like an octopus on your face. It is not who came in your life first, but who stays until the end. This is so so true. All throughout my life I have passed by so many people that I barely remember. Some memories remain in your head forever some just brushed you off and gone with the wind. Even so, I am grateful for everyone I have met and knew, for each brings new precious experience that you gather in life.

I can't emphasize enough how important they are to me. But as time goes by, as you age, as much as you want to keep them all, you know you are drifting away. For many reasons, good or bad. Only the few true ones that you can count on, the ones who are with you through thick and thin, stays. I am so grateful I have those, though very few. 

If any of my friends reading this, I love you and I'm glad that you are still my friend..

A new year.. A new path maybe?

This is progress! I am writing in January. I shall pat myself on the back for the effort. 

I have seen time goes by without me doing anything, writing anything. 2018 or even the years before that have seen me wasting my time and trying this and that. There are failures and successes. But yet still no major breakthrough. It is never too late to start anything regardless the age. The most important thing is that you start something. I have been wanting to write, write and write. Perhaps getting my major breakthrough through my writing. But I never get around seriously into it. Well perhaps I never take things seriously anymore these days. I should establish a routine, a healthy routine to take my life seriously. For example, establish a routine to exercise daily, write daily, look for clients daily. There you go, as simple as that. This has been taught to me years ago, they even give me a schedule to follow, but I never did! Just as somebody pointed to me, with me she didn't know what button to press to move me.. Everybody has a soft button that will make you move from your complacent life.. But looking at it, nobody ever find that soft button in me yet in terms of improving the quality of my life. (is my life that bad?)

Moving forward, other than a new routine... it's all about content, content and content. You must start writing some content. That's the best advice somebody gave me this early of the year. It is so true.. How can I even start compiling when I don't even have content. 

Perhaps the next move is find somebody to become my mentor in this field. I have found one! Just I am not sure if she will take me under her wings.. I should start by asking her.

It is all about taking that crucial step to START!

So this is really a progress. I have started.

And next.. make it a routine.