I'm a Seeker!

I recently took a personality test here. It was great. It felt great.. not necessarily true but I had fun going through it and had even more fun reading the results! I think everybody should take it for the fun of it and perhaps gives you some ideas of yourself. And here's my results. 

In Spirit

You're a Seeker. You have a bright spirit and warm energy. Chatty and friendly, you feel most relaxed when you're hanging out with your best friends.A sensitive soul with an expressive nature, you tend to be quite a romantic at heart. Sometimes you love nothing more than escaping into your very own dreamworld. Spontaneous new experiences can be really inspiring to you and you like exploring your creative side from time to time.Right now, life probably seems quite stressful. You feel like you never get any time for yourself.When it comes to improving things in your life, why would you say no to extra cash? It would be great to treat the family whenever you feel like it. The trick is to be disciplined about budgeting. If you stay on top of your finances, you'll feel a lot more secure and probably save a bit too.It's important to remember to tap into your inner strength and to believe in yourself. Take on new challenges and stay stimulated so you remain enthusiastic and inspired by life. As a Seeker, you get excited by new ideas. You like adventure and original experiences that stimulate and challenge your status quo. Stay inspired with a rich mix of activities, and find time for hobbies that allow you to explore your creative side. Learn to recognize when you need variety in your life, and then incorporate it into your daily plans.You really understand the importance of family. The relationships you have with your nearest and dearest are the most precious things in your life. Make sure you seize every opportunity for quality family time, as it's always such a source of inspiration and comfort for you.

In relationship

For you, love is really about support and companionship. It's a true partnership, friends and allies who know each other inside out.As a Warm Heart, you're very down-to-earth when it comes to love. It is often the simplest pleasures that bring the greatest joy. Your partner is probably one of your best friends in the world, and you believe in creating a home for your kids that feels very safe and secure. It's all about strong foundations based on trust and understanding. You are a deeply loyal person, and you expect the same from your partner. A true relationship is about committing to share your life and leaning on each other in good times and bad.

Relationship tips:

So you're a Warm Heart but what tips can we give for staying connected with your best friend and lover?

1. Keep the magic alive. Light hundreds of candles and spend a magical evening in your own beautiful candlelit cocoon...
2. Curl up on the couch with the Sunday papers and coffee. Nothing beats being able to spend your free time with your best friend and lover. You love it when you feel so close that you're like two peas in a pod.
3. Do something different. Rent roller skates and wobble around the park hanging on to one another for balance!
4. Be yourself. Remember that your partner loves you for who you are, so don't ever feel the need to put up an act.

Where money is concerned

You're an adventurer at heart, and love to see new places when you get the chance. Expanding your horizons can really help to put things into perspective.You have a very healthy approach to life. You know that true happiness doesn't come from material things or possessions. It goes much deeper than that and is all about valuing those things you can't put a price on. You like to care for those around you, and if they're happy, you're happy. You appreciate that both highs and lows make up the balance of life and you always try and stay spiritually  strong and focused.

 In health

You're on the right track with your health. You love feeling rejuvenated after a good night's sleep.Unappealing as it may seem, it would be good to try to be a bit more active every day. You might be surprised at how much you'd actually enjoy regular exercise. It may sound hard to believe, but endorphins are better than chocolate if you just give them a chance! You may even find that you're in a better mood more often. Start off with something that isn't too intimidating, like climbing the stairs instead of taking the elevator. You might even consider signing up for a few personal training sessions in the gym so that you have a program that's tailored just for you. You may need to think about making a few changes what you eat too. Maybe you could try making homemade versions of your favorite restaurant meals to reduce the sodium and fat content and eat healthier without compromising too much on taste.

Food

You like to strike a balance in life. Things might get crazy at times, but you still like to find the time to cook a nutritious meal. The simplest recipes tend to be the ones that work best for your full-on lifestyle, so you can often be found creating some sort of delicious stir fry or Eastern-inspired dish.

Home.. where my heart is..

Ever stopped to dream about your perfect life, even for a bit? Thought so! In fact, your grounded nature suggests your dream life isn't too far out of reach. You're not fantasizing about exotic villas or huge mansions - you'd probably be more comfortable in a beautiful house in the suburbs. A nice neighborhood and friendly neighbors would go a long way for you.

My entertainment

You're an outdoorsy person, happiest when you can get out into the fresh air and explore what the countryside has to offer. You can't beat a few quiet hours in the peace of nature to be alone with your thoughts. Perfect for feeling refreshed and rejuvenated!

THIS... is so true of me!!

Style... hmmm

Classic and classy just about sums you up! You're down-to-earth and practical with a laid-back approach to life. Whether you're just grabbing a coffee or off on exotic travels, you're always cool, calm and collected.

On travel

You're intuitive and find the beauty of nature visually inspiring. For you, getting away from it all means just that. Escaping into nature and heading off the beaten track is what you live for. It's the perfect way to unwind and recharge those batteries. And let's face it: Sitting out under the stars can be very romantic!

It's kinda amazing isn't it... makes me feel good all over! Lalalala....

Of the penniless and the system

I recently had to find out what the "little dot" was all about. And for this I've decided to use one of the country's best medical house .. err hospital. I've heard all the bad stories about the services, as well as success stories that soars the reputation of their expertise and facilities. As penniless as I am, I had to go the public side of the hospital to get the "free" treatment. Oh yes there is another side of the hospital which offer more or less the same treatment or facilities but you have to pay a hefty amount, just for slightly faster and so called more efficient services.

True enough for the penniless, you have to wait for hours to see a doctor (a trainee doctor mind you), in a small treatment room where two doctors share a small table treating their own patients back to back at the same time. So if you don't focus to your doctor, you can actually hear how the other doctor treats his/ her patient and the whole patient medical history. I was baffled for a while when my assigned male doctor wanted to perform "the procedure" on me. Oh no.. no.. I somehow requested (in disbelief!) for a lady doctor. Luckily there was a lady doctor in the room who I believed is their supervisor. So what she did was perform their routine and told the trainee doctor her findings behind the screen. And the trainee doctor recorded the necessary in the report. So what happened was, I had to go for another screening as they couldn't figure out the "little dot". I had to come another day for another screening. Fine.

The day came, I endured a 1.5 traffic crawl to the hospital with an empty stomach and a full bladder. Only to reach the hospital late and being told by the nurse that the doctor had filled in the wrong form to do a screening on me. A wrong form!! I had to go back to the doctor and asked him to fill in the right form. That's what I did, kind of rudely... I actually burst into his room (with a patient in of him) and demanded him to fill in a new correct form. He did and he apologized for what was obviously his mistake. Even that done I still had to come another day (perhaps endured another long traffic crawl, and long queue at the treatment room) as by the time he finished filling in the form, the time had passed (yeah, they have allotted specific time only for some specific treatment). 

This was a week ago. I'm supposed to go there again ... but I dread it thus postpone the appointment for the next three weeks. Perhaps by then I've recovered from the "ordeal".

My whole point is, should I am not as penniless as now, I would have gone to a private medical practitioner where I will save my time, my energy (my anger), not to mention be in a nice smelling place, smiling nurses, and a big comfy private treatment room. But I am so cannot afford the private treatment at this moment hence the ordeal which is nothing to many but a big hassle to me. And another point is, this is the sad whole truth the penniless had to face, the inefficient service, the long wait, the uncomfortable treatment room. I was lucky to encounter smiling faces but I've heard of many cases of rude staff as well. And I have yet to relate others' ordeal in chronic cases where all you need is pull some cables and wallaa... you get the best treatment at lower service rate or non at all. Yeap, the whole sad truth in this country (perhaps applicable in others too?). Oh what can I say now.. the penniless.. as you know it.. no money no talk. I hope there's nothing wrong with me and the little dot is just a dot. Otherwise I'll just wait by my deathbed or go thru the system that is definitely not "penniless" friendly..

A whole new world

It feels like I'm entering a whole new world. A world totally different that I have ever imagined. A world of new people, new challenge, new events, new expectations. I'm loving it so far. And I pray that Allah makes it easy for me, despite the challenges.Thank you Allah for showing me the way. I hope this is the right path that I'm following. InsyaAllah.

I become super busy, physically and mentally. I gotta wear different hats at different times of the day. Amazing how it works, but it's progressing well so far. I hope I will have the strength to carry on and I hope this remains as it is for as long as I need it to be.

Lessons of life - fwded

I received the scripts below in my inbox. I like it so much and I agree with it totally... as such I decided to capture it here. 

Written by a 90 year old

This is something we should all read at least once a week!!!!! Make sure you read to the end!!!!!!

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio .

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I've ever written.

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short – enjoy it.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will.

5.Don't buy stuff you don't need.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Stay true to yourself.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for things that matter.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye but don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful. Clutter weighs you down in many ways.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to be happy but it’s all up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what your love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive but don’t forget.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have not what you need.

42. The best is yet to come...

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

Its estimated 93% won't forward this. If you are one of the 7% who will,
forward this with the title '7%'. 

I have forwarded this via email ... and now I'm keeping it here and sharing it with the rest of world.

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If I could write .....

I wish I could write ... there are just too many things that I want to write about. As life passed me by, there were just too many things to capture and I wish I had written the happenings in my life so that I remember everything. So that I can recall every happy moments in my life when I am down to cheer me up, every sad moment to remind me how to get up again and perhaps every painful moment to make me stronger.

If I could write, I would write about my happy childhood. My childhood that was full of kampung real adventure.. no real or expensive toys but merely from nature! I would want to relive my childhood where there were no worries, just fun lots and lots of love from my family.

If I could write, I would write about my teenage years when I was sent to a boarding school that I hated but stayed on anyway. I learned about friendship and being independent. The friendship that I keep until today.

If I could write, I would write about the most wonderful time in my life, when I went through what I thought was the 'real life'. I learned more about friendship, the value of it, the test of friendship and of course, about love. The real love, the puppy love, the broken hearts, the hatred as well as 'love on the rebound'... or whatever they call it. It was also the beginning of what's more coming ahead in life. The hardship of being independent, the loss and sorrow of losing the most important people in your life, the effects it led you to after that, and somehow how it has shaped you after that.

If I could write, I would write about the joy and sorrow of a marriage, of motherhood, and again of friendship at this stage of life which I found is so significant that I can go berserk without my friends. And at this point of life I would very much want to write the journey of life which has formed some sort of a pattern in one's life... One never knew what's in store for them, one never knew life would turn out to be that way for them regardless how careful they are planning for their lives, let alone those who never plan anything for their lives instead let nature takes its course. 

If I could write I want to write down all my wishes, then, now and ahead of time. I want to write down all the things that I wish I had and had not done. I want my children to read and I hope they will read, understand why life has to be like that, I want them to learn from it, I want them not to repeat the same mistakes I did. 

I want to write, not just about me, but also the lives of those around me which has greatly influenced my life, my life stories and has become apart of me.

If I only I could write.... where every moment spent is actually 'real'!

The little dot

There's a little dot somewhere that needs my attention. At this point of life when there's too much going on in my head I don't have the time to think about the little dot. But this little dot could change my life. It already spoiled my whole day the minute I found it. Oh please little dot, please get lost.. get out of my system. Don't grow on me.. don't live on me... leave me. No I don't want you. I don't need you now, I don't need you ever. I'm sure you are nothing more than just a dot but what if you are not? What are you really? Why are you there to disturb my already chaotic life? Oh I hope it's just nothing. My dear little dot.. please go away, please be a mistake, please be a nothing!

When the going gets tough..

What happens to the not so tough? I am at the junction of life where I have to make a big U-turn to the decision that I've made before. One tough decision to save the day. Sometimes you just got to do what you have to do. I pray hard that things will go well for me. I pray that Allah will make it easy for me. InsyaAllah.